No hope

[Lenox]

I’m only 19 and it already seems like it’s over for me

[Zaddy]

I’m only 19 and it already seems like it’s over for me

WHATS WRONG?

[DMS]

Bro hit me up on kik to rq

[Ghost1]

promise u haven't fucked up worse than atleast 75% of the losers here brah

stay safe. don't take things so seriously. or take them more seriously.

[Ghost1]

I mean look at zelph. hes missing half his face and is most likely an active serial killer that writes text battles and makes asmr videos in his spare time

if that's not motivation that life is gonna be fine....im not sure what could be

[Blue Bayou]

I mean look at zelph. hes missing half his face and is most likely an active serial killer that writes text battles and makes asmr videos in his spare time

if that's not motivation that life is gonna be fine....im not sure what could be

[Amen]

Lmfao

[Allen Knight]

I mean look at zelph. hes missing half his face and is most likely an active serial killer that writes text battles and makes asmr videos in his spare time

if that's not motivation that life is gonna be fine....im not sure what could be

Lmaoo

[~RustyGunZ~]

I was a coke head with no morals that sold brick weed in Binghamton NY when I was your age

Now I’m the Summer Classic champ my guy you will turn it around

[Kill Spree]

I was a coke head with no morals that sold brick weed in Binghamton NY when I was your age

Now I’m the Summer Classic champ my guy you will turn it around

Proud of you

[Blue Bayou]

fucking Bags

[Ryno]

As long as you don’t eat the honey bun off the pillow you’ll be fine...

[DMS]

Bro tho HMU on kik rq in the PMs

[bleak]

He obv don't fuck with you Bingo bongo

[DMS]

He obv don't fuck with you Bingo bongo

Yeha clearly, but he asked me to write an EP and he never got back with promised song concepts so now I’m pissed

[uh-oh]

watup 09 uh-oh

[Zaddy]

I’m a contender in bleaks battle league show some fuckin repasct

[Destroyer]

Look bro, yandhi’s gonna come out

[Witty]

I've been there. Honestly I still go there sometimes, but thankfully I now have the experience that it does in fact pass. When you're in it, it's like this void with seemingly no exit point. But with therapy and perhaps medication (therapy is the most important part, it is quite crucial, some people can be treated with JUST therapy, while others may need therapy and medication, medication without therapy is not recommended) you can escape from the void, you can live a happy life. Some people never go back to that place, I do from time to time but therapy, medication, and experience has helped A LOT in enabling me to speak to myself through the darkness and remind myself that this will pass. Some people say find something to live for, and obviously I now have my family who I (hopefully) could never put through that sort of grief, but really the ideal place in your life to get to is to realise that YOU are enough of a reason to live, even if you are alone, that's ok because YOU are the reason to keep going. You are a worthy recipient of the gift of life. One day I hope you can look in the mirror and say those words to yourself, and mean them. I am still on that journey myself.

Also, I am almost a year medication free.

[Objective]

The second time in my life I really met the wall I was 19/20 years old (I'm 30 now). I've been through some rough shit too and it always seem impossible to manage while you're in the middle of the storm. It does calm down with the right outlook. Now, I'm not gonna say "just stay positive, smile to the world" and that kind of fucking ignorant bs but I will tell you this: get professional help, the right therapist will literally change your life if you often feel like you do in this post.

Like Witty I am now also a year off of my medication. It took way too long before I reached out, gave a couple therapists "we don't get along, plz refer to someone else" and got one I owe my life to. Set up an appointment woth your doc and get shit going, regain control of your life and emotional stability, it's possible. I mean, your brain isn't even fully developed yet so a lot of things can happen on its own when it comes to personal growth and improvements in your 20s.

Keep fighting the good fight, and keep your head up bro. Feel free to pm whenever if you ever feel desperate or just want to talk. There's people around that care, even here. We (those that care) got your back.

[uh-oh]

I mean you can take these guys advice^

Or

Put your hand in your pants. Root around. Feel those? Theyre your balls. Remind yourself you have them.

Youve discovered that life aint shit. It sucks. You can find ways to shun that feeling and hide it or you can be like da god and realize it and embrace it. Depression is a part of life. There is nothing but misery, joy doesnt exist, only reprieves from misery. Embrace it. Embrace the misery, make it the norm. When you have a baseline at misery when anything occurs that is good its that much better.

Or you could take drugs that may or may not work for you depending on if you believe it enough, and whine about your life like a woman to someone who is miserable and listening to you so they can pay their own way through life

Sack up faggot

[Destroyer]

Or weed

[Immolate]

I've been there. Honestly I still go there sometimes, but thankfully I now have the experience that it does in fact pass. When you're in it, it's like this void with seemingly no exit point. But with therapy and perhaps medication (therapy is the most important part, it is quite crucial, some people can be treated with JUST therapy, while others may need therapy and medication, medication without therapy is not recommended) you can escape from the void, you can live a happy life. Some people never go back to that place, I do from time to time but therapy, medication, and experience has helped A LOT in enabling me to speak to myself through the darkness and remind myself that this will pass. Some people say find something to live for, and obviously I now have my family who I (hopefully) could never put through that sort of grief, but really the ideal place in your life to get to is to realise that YOU are enough of a reason to live, even if you are alone, that's ok because YOU are the reason to keep going. You are a worthy recipient of the gift of life. One day I hope you can look in the mirror and say those words to yourself, and mean them. I am still on that journey myself.

Also, I am almost a year medication free.

i knew you was a soft ass bitch. always online talking shit but you just a depressed lil kid smh

jump off a bridge

[Immolate]

as for lenox, are u bags? if so, u a snitch rat faggot. you right nigga you going no where and u hopeless

if Lenox aint Bags and i misunderstood, keep your chin up champ. you're young, life can change in an instant. shit i thought i'd be dead by now for real for real, never planned to make it out the hood YA HEARD ME but look at us now.

chin up chief. stay tough

[Witty]

I mean you can take these guys advice^

Or

Put your hand in your pants. Root around. Feel those? Theyre your balls. Remind yourself you have them.

Youve discovered that life aint shit. It sucks. You can find ways to shun that feeling and hide it or you can be like da god and realize it and embrace it. Depression is a part of life. There is nothing but misery, joy doesnt exist, only reprieves from misery. Embrace it. Embrace the misery, make it the norm. When you have a baseline at misery when anything occurs that is good its that much better.

Or you could take drugs that may or may not work for you depending on if you believe it enough, and whine about your life like a woman to someone who is miserable and listening to you so they can pay their own way through life

Sack up faggot

Yeah let's pretend that rates of suicide in people who take this approach are not way higher than those who actually seek professional help.

[Witty]

i knew you was a soft ass bitch. always online talking shit but you just a depressed lil kid smh

jump off a bridge

You aren't ready for me boy.

Back down.

[Immolate]

lmao
https://i.imgur.com/mxryLgS.jpg
my nigga just cried in the thread then looked up with tears to tell me to back down

go back to reddit.com/r/niceguys fag ass nigga

[Immolate]

Yeah let's pretend that rates of suicide in people who take this approach are not way higher than those who actually seek professional help.

kill yourself

[Witty]

I thought we were friends.

If I go to your Reddit thingy will we be friends then?

[Witty]

kill yourself

Would that make you happy?

I just want you to smile.

[Immolate]

Would that make you happy?

I just want you to smile.
honestly, a little bit. i'd laugh, but i'd also be sad if we keep it 100%

i dont want you to die friend. just wanted to knock you down a few pegs.

keep your chin up and stop being a dick

[Witty]

I'll keep my chin up. Whether or not I can stop being a dick remains to be seen.

But I will try.

[Immolate]

youll be aight channel your hatred into aggressive business deals and being hyper confident around women. promise you you'll be less angry

[Aero]

I’m only 19 and it already seems like it’s over for me


You’re 19, white & live in America? Look my guy. You need to do some soul searching and become more unselfish. Happiness is a choice so choose to be happy. I’ve got some videos that I can pm to you that will help reprogram your mind. We love you & want the best for you.

[Ghost1]

as for lenox, are u bags? if so, u a snitch rat faggot. you right nigga you going no where and u hopeless

if Lenox aint Bags and i misunderstood, keep your chin up champ. you're young, life can change in an instant. shit i thought i'd be dead by now for real for real, never planned to make it out the hood YA HEARD ME but look at us now.

chin up chief. stay tough

Lenox is def.that rat fagot bags

[DMS]

Everyone:

Lenox: I feel like there’s no fucking hope

[Immolate]

Lenox is def.that rat fagot bags

thas why he went silent lmao

KILL YOURSELF YOU RAT FAGGOT

[Immolate]

[Immolate]

RAT

[Immolate]

faggot ass loser pretending to be gang. you prolly the reason P got a case. faggot ass nigga.

how you pretend you about this shit man i loved u and u betrayed the gang. STOOPID

kill yourself faggot

[Immolate]

on god i'm off this board right now since Lennox = Bags

if that's true that means feds is watching.

dear feds, my broski is a sheriff. my other friend is ex FBI. everything i said was just for my imagine as a rapper i aint really bout shit.

xo hope you take care of yo family. love you.

[Immolate]

last words: we all got PTSD in the hood.

i was in the trenches sliding with them grave diggers. he tried to move on me
i told him "dog, you.....i just almost killed"
he looked in my eyes & knew i was real
"was bout to push you off the balcony cuz i thought u'd steal"a
"was bout to dance up on your grave nigga, im for real"

he said "you know Immo, gang gang, here's something real
I had PTSD before the fame, before i hit the field...

.....I had PTSD before afghanistan
i been tripping watching my mans doing rapings fam.....


war crimes reminds me of when i was 10


then i came back home and i was like yo is this shit for real?
i just almost blasted you, dog, on the real"

i said dog, "i almost blasted on YOU, im for real"

i said, "fam you know what i relate to you blood we should chill"

IM OUT

[Diablo]

fuck bags frfr

[Immolate]

kill yourself you fucking rat faggot

https://66.media.tumblr.com/da7d0fe9dcd9700cf4154f6037cf247f/tumblr_oo7ikwsqgN1qalu9no5_1280.jpg

[Immolate]

https://66.media.tumblr.com/3c5f3bd7aac572b6eb088ee3410dd49c/tumblr_oj6vniwtK91qalu9no3_1280.jpg
Kill yourself

https://66.media.tumblr.com/2296fe2803058d4ac2929e823f186d60/tumblr_oi5w1pA80j1qalu9no2_1280.jpg
Kill yourself

https://66.media.tumblr.com/46d8b1565a72b373985e0cf2e8c73fca/tumblr_oi5ghwocze1qalu9no1_1280.jpg
Kill yourself

https://66.media.tumblr.com/444c4bf8bc0dcfe8f69a8e13c55199d8/tumblr_oi5ghwocze1qalu9no2_1280.jpg
KYS


on god niggas like you shouldnt be alive you are a rat faggot bitch snitch words i aint found yet. you the worst of the worst. bottom of the bottom. lowest of the low. thank god we in los angeles and not the UK or else u could have me arrested for online bullying when im keeping it real

nigga you the worst fam

you are a fucking RAT. you betrayed your FRIENDS. niggas who LOVED YOU

you FUCKING SUCK YOU NOT A MAN. KILL YOURSLEF

https://66.media.tumblr.com/92e7e6af991b482e4482e9a52d429413/tumblr_oeoyyqW5g61qalu9no1_1280.jpg

honestly best thing you could do is kill yourself.

only redemption you could have man, you a fucking wasteman.

[Immolate]

https://66.media.tumblr.com/b78e3282b79efb25731a1e4f1877020a/tumblr_oeoyyqW5g61qalu9no2_1280.jpg

swear to god if you hung your self id make a diss track where its just me and no gang laughing. weenie ass nigga

aight lets move on. lets talk about the sadness. i am very sad you did this bro. i really loved you. its like a stab in the heart. i cant believe you really switched like this.

if im hyper aggressive and mean its just cuz you disappointed me that much.

i cant say i dont mean it tho

[Immolate]

https://i.imgur.com/mDAOF9e.jpg
https://66.media.tumblr.com/1b64130afb84b1f23a732d42ab0e11c7/tumblr_nowsjfjBMf1qalu9no4_1280.jpg

TNO
trust no one

real talk, kill yourself. you a bitch

[Immolate]

you not gone make it. you not built for this but you entered the game. but there aint no way out. especially for a rat. thas on god. u gonna live your life in the shadows praying niggas never find out about your past, or you gonna get blasted

and not by me, just by the game. prolly some lil lame fag like you gonna do you in just to make a name.

stupid ass dummy boy

I know these niggas never been a hunnid, they let that fame switch 'em
Did all that preachin' 'bout bein' solid then you changed, nigga
I'm from that 1300 block, I'm still the same nigga
They know how I bleed, swear that shit up in my veins, nigga
I look my brother in his eyes, I seen the pain in him
Boy, I won't play ya, I go to war about my gang members
I was in the trenches slidin' with them grave diggas
Choppa showers, he gon' fall, once that rain hit him

https://66.media.tumblr.com/1b64130afb84b1f23a732d42ab0e11c7/tumblr_nowsjfjBMf1qalu9no4_1280.jpg

[Immolate]

you going through it, you losing it huh?
my shorties eager to tighen your screws.

you got a screw loose you lil bitch faggot? you posting online about it? yo FBI papers on the fucking WEB YOU FAGGOT ASS NIGGA?


choose
Bitches chilling and then they sneak-dissin', I think they sorta confused
Please stop runnin' yo' mouth, that's how brothers go missin' and niggas get put on the news
You goin' through it, you losin' it, huh, my shorties eager to tighten your screws
Them blickys go off like alarms, but you ain't wakin' up if you snooze
Niggas be clowns, puttin' on shows for the media, I don't give a shit 'bout a muse
I won't forget 'bout that list that you sent, we gon' get you for frontin' yo move
My shootas some hell-raisers, come through poppin' bronze, they don't give a fuck ' bout the rules
I played the block, went on them juugs by my lonely, I had the 4-0 up in school
Fightin' anxiety so I kept spendin' my last on all the drugs I abuse
Down on my ass, they ain't give a fuck about me, I felt like I ain't have nothin' to loose
Now I'm in my bag, just tryna run up these millis 'cause I ain't got nothin' to prove

WE GOT FUCKING PAPERS ON YOU
YOU CHANGED NIGGA

[Immolate]

i really love you tho. god damn why you betray a nigga man

shit

imma cry and go to sleep now. id never do any harm by you. i love u way too much. im just tryna tell u like id tell my lil bro. you crossed the line of no return

[Immolate]

stoopid ass dummy boy

[Immolate]

if u wondering why im still talking even tho feds watching, its cuz my uncle is a decorated cop in seattle. and we dont know each other well, but when his dad died i was there, and i was brutal. he loved me for how brutal i was. god i was mean.

and my nigga i work with is a WWII vet. only 200K WWII vets alive. and i know one and he loves me like a son. he used to be asheriff

im solid.

im good.

i love em and they love me.

i aint got shit else to say except damn its sad

[Immolate]

please stop running yo mouth.

[Immolate]

SHUT THE FUCK UP IMMO

DONT BE A DUMMY ASS BOY

[Immolate]

THEY AINT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT U
SOON AS THEY FIND A CRACK THEY GONE SLIDE
U AINT GOT SHIT TO PROVE
DUMMY ASS BOY

[Immolate]

FUCKING DUMMY ASS BOY
THIS REAL LIFE STOOPID
NIGGAS WILL REALLY FUCKING BLOW OUR BRAIN SOUTH
SHUT THE FUCK UP
SEAR TO G==D

[Immolate]

niggas will really slide on me when im unconscious and black out drunk. they will really blow my brains out tonight. tongiht. tonight.


nigga. tonight.


remember last week? that sheriff's two sons kicked in your window? you aint even wake up. ya you seleeep next to your gun stupid toy if u aint wake up

they coulda killed me on god. they relaly coulda slid on me so easy. they actually did.

please top running your mouth
shut the fuck up

SHUT UP

[Immolate]

night.

shut the fuck up. we aint on shit

[Immolate]

did all that preaching bout bein solid then you changed, nigga

[Immolate]

she said, "i am dying"
i said, "i am trying"
i passed out, she knocked on my house for hours i didn't hear it
swear if i heard it, would have took you in.

she had a shot gun.
she tied a knoose.
god look at that caboose
she said she really meant it
she said it again, 100 fucking times
it meant more each time
but i cant lie
i still fell asleep
i still didn't give a fuck
i loved that it was deep
it made me dream
u gonna kill yourself?
ill sing by the body.
i will dedicate 10 years of drinking to your body.
i will honor you.
go ahead and do it.
ill follow up.
you not gonna do it.
you too bitch.
please,
dont do it
id miss you too much, Mitch.

[Immolate]

we are not strangers, we are 2, we are not 1

[Immolate]

where u goin? i dont care?
ive killed my word
& ive killed my time
so where do i go
slifalsjfdaljfalskjdi see?
i see many people COMING AFTER ME
so where u going to? id ont mind
OSIHOJEREWO u go FSLJLJKFLKJMIND
LKJFLKJSLDFLSFJSLKF I FI FL F EVER TO
strangers
we are one
we are not two
we are one.

[Immolate]

so u been where i just come

[Immolate]

legit just saw a cop all he had to do was ask me a single question. if he ran my ID, id be in the tank tonight for 6 months mim for violating parole. he didnt tho. he just looked at me. he saw me there, drunk as fuck. driving in the snow. he just looked at me. then he kept driving.


it aint personal man. these boys love you.

[Immolate]

tonight im met my neighbor for the first time for real. i plowed him with booze and weed until he got so drunk he couldnt lie to me.

then he told me his whole story. you could tell he didnt want to but the high made it impossible to deny. he told me he had 6 kids, and 4 days ago he tried to kll himself. his si called the cops and they committed him. dint know this guy but i love him

fuc you all

[Immolate]

i told him. i treid to tell him but he was too drunk to listen. he just wanted to talk he kept talking over me so i just shut up. i can respect a nigga who wanna get something off his chest in a hardcore way cuz he found someone who'll listen

i tried to tell him tho. i kept trying to tell him. but everytime i tried to tell him, he'd cut me off and talk about dyin

[Geno]

promise u haven't fucked up worse than atleast 75% of the losers here brah

stay safe. don't take things so seriously. or take them more seriously.



This. Guarantee you havnt done the ahit and fucked up the things i have or taken the risks i have... Your 19 man. You have a lot of life to live man. All you need to do is the next best thing. Real shit. Keep doing the next best thing and makin the right choices and shit gonna pan out right. And remember... The right choice is usually the one that is the hardest to commit to. Take that road 90% of the time. Pz be ez

[Destroyer]

Lol. That song is the truth tho, immo

[Lenox]

Lenox is def.that rat fagot bags

[Zaddy]

You have fagits like immo and big Bolo running around unhinged yet I’m the one you choose to always fuck with Diode? Smh

[Immolate]

hope u went through with it you faggot ass snitch rat bitch